If I didn’t know better I’d feel like any minute now I’m gonna wake up and this’ll all’ve been some kinda dream. How the fuck does a guy go from hunted apostate to Seneschal of the Consilium in an hour and a half?
Why do I feel like I’m just waiting for the other shoe to drop? Nah, I know why. Been a long time since somebody told me, Adrian, you did good, kid. Kinda stupid to say so but it feels good. Guess I’m still more paranoid about deserving it than I thought.
…could be Rhiannon, too. Didn’t even expect to see her here and I almost wish she hadn’t shown up. She helped me out and don’t get me wrong, I appreciate it. But seeing her like this…I dunno. Hard to feel like even all of this was good enough, knowing what a piss-poor job I’m still doing as their Doorwarden. Still can’t find Flare, Artemis has been acting like she expects to be smacked for something all week, and now this with Rhi. She barely had three words to say to me. I get that something’s going down with Mainyu, and God knows I know Vates can give you some good reasons to shut your trap, but how the hell am I supposed to do my job when I got no fuckin idea what’s going on? Every minute we’re with her I feel like we’re walking right into a trap blindfolded, and every minute we’re not I feel like I’m about to lose her.
Yeah, I know this is what Vates wanted. Us separated, her scared, me angry. I don’t give a fuck. When the chips are down I’ll turn this off, but right now I want it right here at the top of my mind. Because the second he and his bullshit schemes hurt one hair on her head, he’s history. And I’m sure he knows that, too. So he’ll be real careful. I just hope to God I figure this out before it’s too late.
Ha ha, what a Pandemonium birthday this is gonna turn out to be. Congratulations, Adrian, you won the election. Now suffer. Bring it on, Path of Scourging. I’m ready for you.